SAD

Something about death
And dying still
Darkens solemn areas.

Learn to love the ride

This is the theme song to the Showtime series "The United States of Tara."


Learn to love the ride


Open up the sky

This mess is getting high

It’s windy and our family needs a ride

I know we’ll be just fine

When we learn to love the ride


By Tim DeLaughter of the Polyphonic Spree

The last two lines speak volumes to me. "I know we'll be just fine when we learn to love the ride." When I look back and see lots of things that were fulfillment of goals, I realize that the "ride" was living and the "fulfillment" was the prize. Even without the prize, I have lived and that is the most important part. I love the ride even when I am scared shitless.

I know I'll be just fine because I've learned to love the ride

Self-Pity

Self-Pity can come from negative things like losing a job but to focus on it only makes your state worse. Don't deny the things that went wrong but do look for the things that are going right.

I was upset with a misogynistic, manipulative and disrespectful coworker. He is very unhappy and makes himself physically ill from the things he does. I am not that way. I know to respect others and myself. This higher trait is something that keeps me going.

I am getting paid until next October even though my contract ends in May. I have a nice apt that I consider to be a sanctuary. It may not have everything I want in it but it is my corner of the world that for me is safe. I have a nice car and although I may need to get a different one, I know that I am okay for now.

I have some great coworkers that I never want to forget. They are so special to me. I have great students that I know will be even greater in the future.

There are many other things and while the negative is in the forefront, I must remember those things that are good. I am a good person and a GOOD SOUTHERN MAN.

My Job Has Ended

Well, I got the news today that I did not get the job I was going for. There is a chance that a position will open but I will not cross my fingers. Hmm. I am sort of in a state of shock. I have gone through so many emotions about it and am just at a waterfall that is too heavy for the dam. I know when it breaks it will feel so much better but I can't force it. I have had a glass of wine and will probably have more but I think I will be better tomorrow. There is a tremendous amount of shame and inadequacy that I feel but I know I shouldn't. If you feel it, you must process it. I know this will give me a chance to finish my Doctorate and do wonderful things. Well, I feel the wines effect. I must end for now. Thanks for reading.

Aniticipation

"Anticipation, anticipa-a-tion, it's making me wait."

This song keeps going through my head these days. I remember this from my childhood being the jingle for Heinz Ketchup. I am waiting to find out if I got the job next year or not. At this moment the anticipation is much worse than the answer until the answer comes and it isn't what I want to hear. LOL.

Speaking of Ketchup... My Latino friend said that My last name in Spanish is Del Monte. LOL. Wrong brand but just as anticipatory.

Watch the 1980 Heinz Ketchup anticipation commercial.

Loneliness

There is great comfort in being with others...

The heart fills,

The mind engages,

The body responds,

The subconscious relaxes.

But wait, these are fantastic elements that if personified would never allow for loneliness.

When these elements are aware of each other a true communication that alleviates loneliness can occur.

We all have done things and have had things done to us that causes shame. This breaks the bond of these elements and has them facing the wall, standing in separate corners of the room. Loneliness is a self occupied corner. The back form a shield from anyone trying to get through.

Shame, Anger, Sorrow... any emotion has the capacity to separate these elements. It is when we face these emotions and say, "Yes, I am human and I have emotions that I don't want to experience." It is unfortunate but you can put them away for a while but they will always come back. It is like putting oil in a cardboard box. Without you touching it, it will eventually flow through the box and make a huge mess.

Most people are capable of compassion for others. Allow yourself to personify these elements and be just as compassionate for them.

As long as these elements are in communication with each other, the loneliness of being apart from others will not come so soon. It is imperative that we have outward relationships... It is also imperative that we have inward relationships.

The next time you experience loneliness that has come so immediate from a social situation, try connecting all of these elements. You may experience that bottled emotion. If you are emotionally nauseous, don't you think it is time to alleviate that feeling by doing what is necessary? Relief will come and loneliness will dissipate.

Quote of the Day

I have mentioned before that I get a quote a day (with the exception of Sunday) in my email but I don't think I have ever shared with you how to get it. First let me share with you this quote that made me feel great about my own integrity:

What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared
to what lies within us.

-- Ralph Waldo Emerson

I am surrounded by people who prove themselves on what they have done and what they are going to do.  I do think it is important to have done things and to do things but what I find more important is who that person is when those things are taken away.  If no one cares what you have done and no one care what you will do, will the person that is left have enough substance to stand alone.  At one time my substance was lost.  I based it on so many outside things.  I have realized the importance of others and myself.  What lies within is what I look for in a person.  Unfortunately, we can be blind to what is truly inside another person and blind to what is truly inside ourselves.  Don't be disappointed when you see the shallow side of either.  Search for the "within" that is substance filled.  

The way that you subscribe to the quote of the day is below:

----------------------------------------------------------
SUBSCRIBING to Positive Quote of the Day
----------------------------------------------------------

You can subscribe and unsubscribe at:
http://www.positivepress.com/saying/subscription.php3

------------------------------------

Copyright 2008, AttitudeMedia.com, Inc.
"Positive Saying of the Day", "Positive Quote of the Day" and "Positive
Press" are trademarks of AttitudeMedia.com

Have a great day!